"I don't know when
I don't know how
but i know something's starting right now
watch and you'll see
some day I'll be
part of your world"

既然什么都不是，
又何必那么认真？

5 questions

what is there to be frustrated about?

what is there to be sad about?

what is there to be confused about?

what is there to feel bad about?

what is there to be true about?

i am at serena's house right now
bo liao nothing to do tat's why i am writing this blog

life has still been interesting since then!
discovering possibilities is a risk but its full of fun~~~~~
it's always a pain to figure out what the future holds, but i guess we've learn not to hope for the future but to hope for the present.

i'm living everyday life everyday
and i'm doing a lot of running recently :D with serena..... NOT
alone la, ofcos. i challenged the 6km bibra lake running path last sunday, and was suprised that i could make without stopping wakakakakaka
yayaya i know its only 6km, but for a FAT guy like me, its consider a big thing liao la.
anyway serena got visitor liao so i have to cabut
till next time laa

words

life has been pretty interesting lately

a word that initiated a cascade of events, which turns life upside down and inside out.
I thought it would be ok, that we would all be the same and the sun will come out and set the other day, that we would all go to work, come back and sleep at the same phase.

But with only one word, only one
so strong it burns the sun, and it never rise the other day

we do not see the future, but we'll hang on to something in the future

but one word took me off my hook
i've got nothing to hang on to now...

assingment

Congratulations- you have been appointed as chief veterinarian at A Veterinary Practice situated in the thriving metropolis of Anytown.

The morning…..

You have a very busy morning clinic and being incredibly astute and well trained you diagnose the following pets with some rather serious problems.

- ‘Paris’ Hilton, a 2.5-kg Chihuahua with spontaneous hypoadrenocorticism

- Jennifer’ Aniston, a 4-kg Domestic short-hair with inflammatory bowel disease and suppurative cholangiohepatitis

- ‘Gwyneth’ Paltrow, a 10-kg Miniature Dachshund with nephrotic syndrome due to glomerulonephritis

- ‘George’ Clooney, a 35-kg Boxer with pituitary-dependent hyperadrenocorticism

- ‘Brad’ Pitt, a 25-kg Briard with hypercalcaemia due to multi-centric lymphoma

(matt: so..... jennifer aniston has IBD.... no wonder brad pitt dun wan her..... but he himself also got cancer??)

Choose ONE (1) of these patients. The owners of this patient are very nice and love their pet, but unfortunately do not speak English. You need to explain the diagnosis you have made and how it causes the clinical signs their pet may be displaying to their Year 8 son (of average intelligence) (matt: only average? not stupid....) who does speak English. Also briefly describe treatment implications for this condition.

The afternoon……..

You now have some time to organise discharging the cases you diagnosed yesterday:

- ‘Jude’ Law, a 4-kg three-year-old DSH with aortic thromboembolism due to otherwise asymptomatic unclassified cardiomyopathy

- ‘Angelina’ Jolie, a 60-kg Great Dane with severe aspiration pneumonia secondary to megaoesophagus

- ‘Matt’ Damon, a 3.5-kg twelve-year-old DLH with systemic hypertension due to chronic renal failure

- ‘Britney’ Spears, a 5.5-kg ten-year-old Oriental with nasal crytpococcosis

- ‘Ben’ Affleck, a 10-kg Cavalier King Charles Spaniel with idiopathic immune-mediated haemolytic anaemia

(Matt: so now we know why britney spears had a meltdown.....)

Select ONE (1) of these cases and write a client discharge treatment and ongoing care summary to send home with their pet (as you are going to be too busy to discharge them all individually).

The evening……..

Now you have a little bit of time and need to tend to the patients that you have in hospital. You are very glad that it is Friday and you are going away for a surfing weekend (great beaches in Anytown), (matt: WHO FUCKING CARES??) so you need to make sure your colleagues have a good idea of how to manage your in-patients.

Select ONE (1) of the cases below and write a treatment plan for the next three days, whilst they are hospitalised. Be sure to cover all aspects of their care (eg. toileting, diet, medications, adjunctive therapy) and when these may be discontinued. Indicate what complications may occur and what should be done if they do.

- ‘Just’ Timberlake, a 7-kg Maine Coone Cat with hypertophic cardiomyopathy causing pulmonary oedema

- Nicole’ Kidman, a 40-kg six-year-old German Shepherd with atrial fibrillation due to mitral valve dysplasia and Grade II left-sided congestive heart failure

- ‘Russell’ Crowe, a 12-kg 4 month-old Labrador Retriever with a congenital extra-hepatic portosystemic shunt

- ‘J-Lo’ Lopez, a 20-month-old 3.5 kg DSH with bilateral pyothorax (awaiting culture results)

- ‘Hugh’ Grant, a 6-kg ten-year-old Yorkshire with diabetes ketoacidosis and pancreatitis

(MATT: now i know which celebs are my lecturers a fan of.... and damn!! i got some nice celebrity patients!!!!!)

random song

lalalalalalalala this is so random, because someone ask me to post something random
lalalalalalalala this is so random as random as the bitch so random

lalalalalalalala i am so random, because we are all eating mango so randomly random
lalalalalalalala i am so random as random as alice in wonderland so random

*chorus*
now so random~~~~ ahlalalalayoyoyo so random
then so random~~~~ uhlalalalayaiyaiayi so random
still so random ~~~~ lalalalallelelulu so random
again so fucking random~~~~ lalalalalal i duno wat to say so random

*raP*
yo now wat u all mother fucking random, yo u tell me you broke so random, so random as a ram so random as a ball so creative random or faune random
yo if we random sing then we random rap ima like you random gonna get some police action
yoyo yoyoyoyoyo random f^^k now so cib@i random yo yo yo yo yo yo!!!!!!

*chorus*
now so random~~~~ ahlalalalayoyoyo so random
then so random~~~~ uhlalalalayaiyaiayi so random
still so random ~~~~ lalalalallelelulu so random
again so fucking random~~~~ lalalalalal i duno wat to say so random

lalalalalalalalala this song is randomgly coming to an end
and alalalalalalalalala random bitch you raondom song
lalalalalalalalala so randomly asked for a random song
lalalalalalalalalal random song for a random bitch

The world changes, but we do things over and over again for the same reasons. We do not stop, because we want to feel alive and forget that we are going to die.

光之翼

静静的按下电源开关
屏幕的色彩越来越亮
在虚拟的城市找一个
让心灵休息的地方
塑料的键盘滴答发响
机器的声音温柔呼唤
放弃了不完美的肉身
跃出了现实的天窗

高速的联机传送思想
跳跃的文字透露愿望
安慰的话比亲密拥抱
彷佛更真实的触感

屏幕的色彩依旧发亮
机器的声音继续呼唤
在网络的海洋找不到
让欲望躲藏的地方
神秘的信道即将开放
渴望的心情兴奋不安
放弃了太疲倦的肉身
跃出了现实的天窗

张开透明翅膀
朝着月亮飞翔
搜寻最美一个
现世的天堂
飞过夜的尽头
拥抱你的温柔
乘着幻想的风
散落无数的光芒

18 SG (contain coarse language)

SERIOUSLY YOU SHOULD JUST FUCK OFF
FUCK OFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

WHO THE HELL DO U THINK YOU ARE??? WHAT RIGHTS DO U HAVE TO FUCK WITH OTHER PEOPLE'S MIND????? IS IT BECAUSE U DUN HAVE A MIND?? FUCK U!! FUCK OFF

OMG SERIOUSLY GROW UP U FUCKER..... HOW OLD ARE YOU ALREADY??? USE YOUR BRAIN TO THINK OK? woops my bad..... I FORGOT U DUN HAVE A FUCKING BRAIN!! GROW UP PLSSSSS ITS DAMN OBVIOUS THAT WE ALL HATE YOU SO PLSSSS DUN ACT LIKE U ARE SO COOOL COS YOU ARE FUCKING NOT COOL, U ARE NOT EVEN COOL WHEN YOU ARE FUCKING!!! SO JUST DO US A FAVOUR AND FUCK YOURSELF IN THE CORNER OR FUCK YOURSELF OUT OF THIS WORLD

TO FUCK WITH ALL YOUR ACTS AND METAPHORE, WE DUN REALLY CARE, COS ITS DAMN OBVIOUS, WE KNOW EVERY FUCKING THINGS U ARE DOING. TOO DAMN FUCKING OBVIOUS YOU FAKE FUCKERRRRR

SO I'M FUCKING ASKING U TO FUCK OFF HERE WITHOUT ANY METAPHORES.... U REALISE IT NOW? STRAIGHT FORWARD JUST FUCKING FUCK OFF. YOU WILL MAKE LIFE SO MUCH EASIER!!!!

GROW UP AND BE A MAN, DO THE RIGHT THING, WHERE ARE YOUR BALLS????????????????????????????????? DO U EVEN HAVE BALLSSS?? OH PLS!! FOR FUCK SAKES GO FIND BACK YOUR BALLS AND FIXED IT BACK TO YOUR DICK MAN!!!


feel so much fucking better now.....
if anyone feels that they have read this somewhere before, yes i copied that blog's idea.
feel free to laugh at it

Bad hair day!

she's from china



she's mad


she's super crazy



and the ultimate......


professor X's hair (is that even a hair?)

It's 12.39am and i am excited.
I don't really know what am i excited about, but i think its because i just finished my assignment

I'm always getting all the excitement at the wrong hour of the day >.<
Now how am i suppose to sleep ah.....

if only i could feel such excitement during lectures........

Court official: "you have created your own legend, and you shall be prosecuted for that. The 13 lives you had taken shall join us today to see you perish for the last time"

Executioner: "He's...... He's innocent!!"

Crowd: "He's an angel!!!"

Court official: "An Angel? Very well, but remember this... I'll be looking at you when you're laid on the cross and the twelve blows are crashing down on your limbs. When the crowd is finally tired of your screams and wandered home, I will climb up through your blood and sit beside you. I will look deep into your eyes... and drop by drop I will trickle my disgust into them like burning acid until... finally... you perish."

--perfume--

"I am waiting, for the waves to come one day and sweep away all my sorrow, to be buried deep under the sea, and to be left there eternally"

Greatness in you

They say today is the day.

They have long packed their stuff in anticipating of this day. They are ready and shall all leave today. "We leave before sun rise, and take the earliest train. This should get us out of here in no time!" and that was the plan. Nobody ever hesitate or objected because they could not care about leaving home. It was as if there were nothing left to be missed, only dark corners and shredded papers. It would be almost perfect for dark creatures that linger around the house, but to them this is nothing, they have darker places to go.

In them, there is this boy. He was the youngest and had no clue about life then. He was just following the crowd. He do not understand why he needs to follow them, but he remembered the dark alley where he was running away from someone, or something. And then he bumped into one of them and found safety in their arms. They did nothing much but it was weird that he found comfort with them as company.

And now there he is, in the train. He do not know where are they going for they never told him. They all had reasons not to tell him, and it has become clearer when the train reaches its first station, that Rhea and Gaea left. Then the next station comes right after Gaea steps out of the train. It was platform "986 of Tartarus" where Thea, Metis and Atlas left. He do not understand why are they not going in a crowd anymore. Neither does he understand where has all the other passengers gone to. "Did they all left at the first two stations? Did they all disappeared into thin air? Or did Chronus devour them all?", with his last thought, he looked up to Chronus and saw him licking his perfect, long, slender fingers. Those perfect fingers were obviously made for playing the piano, but he knows that Chronus sometimes use them to dig brains of his preys from their eye...

They have finally reached the next stop, Chronus steps up and walk slowly to the entrance but stops at the landing stairs. He stands for a while and turns back to look at the boy. Their eyes meet, it is not a scary look, but instead there is an aura of love and warmth emitting all around him. The train has start to move again, and Chronus is in no hurry of getting down, he smiles to the boy and then says "you are great", before jumping off the full speed train.

Now the boy is alone in the train. The rest of his crowd has disappear too and only Sally is left. She walks towards the boy and hold his hands, then talks to the boy......




They boy wakes, and find himself in the train with a few hundreds other passenger. Sally is no where to be seen, and he could not remember what happen after sally spoke to him. He only remembered she said something about something great, he could not remember what is that, that was great, but he knows that it is so unbearably great that it would make fate and faith humble. He tries to remember what is that Sally had said, but only succeed to forget more.

There he is now, in the train that he has no idea where is it heading to.
And there he is, alone with a few hundred other passenger that he wishes not to speak with
He has given up on remembering what was told, and probably has even forgot about sally or the other people.

"Today was the day" he thought.

liebe

Ich glaube, wir passen gut zueinander.
liebe dich

"And now the rules are different, things that we thought to be true, turn out not to be. And it seems that when we give up on what was, that's when things that we thought improbable or impossible even happen right before your eyes..."

Breath me

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

jump baby jump!

ready......??


JUMP!!



Strike a pose~


pose 2~~~


get ready for landing.....


landed safely (phew....)


I think i should get a better camera

Proposal

let be your finest words



"Will you marry me?"