Tchaikovsky's Fireworks

updaTE!

2010-02-02T00:51:00.001+08:00

updated......

小说

2009-03-09T22:51:00.002+09:00

叹息，自己没有别人的才华
可惜，自己没有比别人能干
遗憾，自己也没有那么伟大
竟然什么都没有
就只能坚持自己的信念，
继续奔跑

helloooooo

2009-03-01T23:23:00.001+09:00

sorry to dissapoint you guys...
but i'm not dead yet

Nothing lasts

2009-01-06T22:47:00.002+09:00

of all the many ways of leaving
you left, with the most stylish you can be
our short meeting was swift but sweet
you will be remembered in the most melancholic way

chrsitmas tree beside the fire place

2008-12-22T17:23:00.001+09:00

wishing you all a merry christmas!!

2008-12-18T01:23:00.000+09:00

梅雨时节飘落叶等满满的水位

2008-12-15T21:59:00.000+09:00

REVENGE IS SWEETER THAN U EVER WERE!

2008-12-04T00:51:00.001+09:00

短痛不如长痛
短讯不如长信

the endless

2008-11-29T03:35:00.001+09:00

siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh......

Exam nag

2008-11-23T12:57:00.001+09:00

I have been complaining a lot about my exams recently, about how horrijible they are
complain until people no sien i also sien first

but finally....... NO MORE PRODUCTION ANIMALS!!!!

my exam timetable last week was like this:

Monday 2pm - moo moo exam
Wedensday 2pm - baah baah and oink oink (and some chickens) exam
Friday 9.30am - baah baah, oink oink, moo moo and horsey prac exam

so yeah, manage to study 1200 pages of production animals' diseases for the exam, which i can barely remember anything now.... but i dun care, as long as its over and can pass is a can!!!

so my next paper will be small animals, of dogs and cats
its much more interesting when studying
but still.... got 9 topics to study in 3 days =.= and i have only done one, and i am still wasting my time writing this blog, so yeah.... *stree button pressed*

its almost over, but gawd i hate 4th yr.....................

the problem of 无奈

2008-11-21T18:01:00.000+09:00

its that time at life again when you are faced with a 无奈 situation....
what can you do ler =.=
suck it up and handle it maturely lor................ if i can LOL

sheep fun facts

2008-11-19T00:08:00.000+09:00

To foster an orphaned lamb to a new ewe (mum), rub his heads onto her vagina then only will she let him suck her teats :D

2008-11-17T23:39:00.000+09:00

我们在人群中擦肩而过
在城市的呼吸里沉默游走

2008-11-14T12:08:00.000+09:00

如果你能给我如果的事

The system of the world ?

2008-11-11T16:47:00.000+09:00

Does our world runs in a system?
the world is governed by so many rules, it almost feels like a system
take example: law and economics - two systems created by human in order for the world to run smoothly.
science is a system too! starling's Law, quantam physics, law's of physics, law and order.......

So ok there is a system for our world
but what about life?
are we bound to do the same thing everyday?
are we suppose to expect that somethings should happen because of the system?
is "routine" the system of life?

i'm starting not to make sense =.=
but what i have discovered is - i had hoped for a system to life
the feeling of being safe and comfortable all the time because everything is expected
and then once in a while something special happens and it would act as a suprise, or a wow-factor to life, making life a little bit less boring
that would be a system to be expected.

but i guess that's bull shit
we should learn now how not to expect "system" or "routine" in life
because nothing is certain.
nothing was ever certain, and nothing will ever be certain
uncertainty makes life more interesting?
yeah, and it makes me very uncomfortable too

but till you find your own certainty, you are still consider as uncertain
and that is how i think the system of the world should be

Introducing Matilda

2008-11-09T14:35:00.000+09:00

yes, she is my long lost twin sister that we finally just meet up last friday. mum told me about her before and i thought we would never see each other.... until now!!

That's Matilda

Matilda and her friends (from left to right: giselle-garyella, karen, nellie, Matilda)

Matilda's sexy lips

Matilda and a very disturbed and frightened dean of vet school

and she was even in a movie called "Charlie's bitches"... i mean charlie's angels

2008-11-07T01:19:00.001+09:00

"I don't know when
I don't know how
but i know something's starting right now
watch and you'll see
some day I'll be
part of your world"

2008-11-04T11:53:00.000+09:00

既然什么都不是，
又何必那么认真？

5 questions

2008-11-02T12:23:00.000+09:00

what is there to be frustrated about?

what is there to be sad about?

what is there to be confused about?

what is there to feel bad about?

what is there to be true about?

2008-10-31T15:37:00.000+09:00

i am at serena's house right now
bo liao nothing to do tat's why i am writing this blog

life has still been interesting since then!
discovering possibilities is a risk but its full of fun~~~~~
it's always a pain to figure out what the future holds, but i guess we've learn not to hope for the future but to hope for the present.

i'm living everyday life everyday
and i'm doing a lot of running recently :D with serena..... NOT
alone la, ofcos. i challenged the 6km bibra lake running path last sunday, and was suprised that i could make without stopping wakakakakaka
yayaya i know its only 6km, but for a FAT guy like me, its consider a big thing liao la.
anyway serena got visitor liao so i have to cabut
till next time laa

words

2008-10-12T21:28:00.000+08:00

life has been pretty interesting lately

a word that initiated a cascade of events, which turns life upside down and inside out.
I thought it would be ok, that we would all be the same and the sun will come out and set the other day, that we would all go to work, come back and sleep at the same phase.

But with only one word, only one
so strong it burns the sun, and it never rise the other day

we do not see the future, but we'll hang on to something in the future

but one word took me off my hook
i've got nothing to hang on to now...

assingment

2008-09-23T20:07:00.001+08:00

Congratulations- you have been appointed as chief veterinarian at A Veterinary Practice situated in the thriving metropolis of Anytown.

The morning…..

You have a very busy morning clinic and being incredibly astute and well trained you diagnose the following pets with some rather serious problems.

- ‘Paris’ Hilton, a 2.5-kg Chihuahua with spontaneous hypoadrenocorticism

- Jennifer’ Aniston, a 4-kg Domestic short-hair with inflammatory bowel disease and suppurative cholangiohepatitis

- ‘Gwyneth’ Paltrow, a 10-kg Miniature Dachshund with nephrotic syndrome due to glomerulonephritis

- ‘George’ Clooney, a 35-kg Boxer with pituitary-dependent hyperadrenocorticism

- ‘Brad’ Pitt, a 25-kg Briard with hypercalcaemia due to multi-centric lymphoma

(matt: so..... jennifer aniston has IBD.... no wonder brad pitt dun wan her..... but he himself also got cancer??)

Choose ONE (1) of these patients. The owners of this patient are very nice and love their pet, but unfortunately do not speak English. You need to explain the diagnosis you have made and how it causes the clinical signs their pet may be displaying to their Year 8 son (of average intelligence) (matt: only average? not stupid....) who does speak English. Also briefly describe treatment implications for this condition.

The afternoon……..

You now have some time to organise discharging the cases you diagnosed yesterday:

- ‘Jude’ Law, a 4-kg three-year-old DSH with aortic thromboembolism due to otherwise asymptomatic unclassified cardiomyopathy

- ‘Angelina’ Jolie, a 60-kg Great Dane with severe aspiration pneumonia secondary to megaoesophagus

- ‘Matt’ Damon, a 3.5-kg twelve-year-old DLH with systemic hypertension due to chronic renal failure

- ‘Britney’ Spears, a 5.5-kg ten-year-old Oriental with nasal crytpococcosis

- ‘Ben’ Affleck, a 10-kg Cavalier King Charles Spaniel with idiopathic immune-mediated haemolytic anaemia

(Matt: so now we know why britney spears had a meltdown.....)

Select ONE (1) of these cases and write a client discharge treatment and ongoing care summary to send home with their pet (as you are going to be too busy to discharge them all individually).

The evening……..

Now you have a little bit of time and need to tend to the patients that you have in hospital. You are very glad that it is Friday and you are going away for a surfing weekend (great beaches in Anytown), (matt: WHO FUCKING CARES??) so you need to make sure your colleagues have a good idea of how to manage your in-patients.

Select ONE (1) of the cases below and write a treatment plan for the next three days, whilst they are hospitalised. Be sure to cover all aspects of their care (eg. toileting, diet, medications, adjunctive therapy) and when these may be discontinued. Indicate what complications may occur and what should be done if they do.

- ‘Just’ Timberlake, a 7-kg Maine Coone Cat with hypertophic cardiomyopathy causing pulmonary oedema

- Nicole’ Kidman, a 40-kg six-year-old German Shepherd with atrial fibrillation due to mitral valve dysplasia and Grade II left-sided congestive heart failure

- ‘Russell’ Crowe, a 12-kg 4 month-old Labrador Retriever with a congenital extra-hepatic portosystemic shunt

- ‘J-Lo’ Lopez, a 20-month-old 3.5 kg DSH with bilateral pyothorax (awaiting culture results)

- ‘Hugh’ Grant, a 6-kg ten-year-old Yorkshire with diabetes ketoacidosis and pancreatitis

(MATT: now i know which celebs are my lecturers a fan of.... and damn!! i got some nice celebrity patients!!!!!)

random song

2008-09-23T00:16:00.000+08:00

lalalalalalalala this is so random, because someone ask me to post something random
lalalalalalalala this is so random as random as the bitch so random

lalalalalalalala i am so random, because we are all eating mango so randomly random
lalalalalalalala i am so random as random as alice in wonderland so random

*chorus*
now so random~~~~ ahlalalalayoyoyo so random
then so random~~~~ uhlalalalayaiyaiayi so random
still so random ~~~~ lalalalallelelulu so random
again so fucking random~~~~ lalalalalal i duno wat to say so random

*raP*
yo now wat u all mother fucking random, yo u tell me you broke so random, so random as a ram so random as a ball so creative random or faune random
yo if we random sing then we random rap ima like you random gonna get some police action
yoyo yoyoyoyoyo random f^^k now so cib@i random yo yo yo yo yo yo!!!!!!

*chorus*
now so random~~~~ ahlalalalayoyoyo so random
then so random~~~~ uhlalalalayaiyaiayi so random
still so random ~~~~ lalalalallelelulu so random
again so fucking random~~~~ lalalalalal i duno wat to say so random

lalalalalalalalala this song is randomgly coming to an end
and alalalalalalalalala random bitch you raondom song
lalalalalalalalala so randomly asked for a random song
lalalalalalalalalal random song for a random bitch

2008-09-11T22:46:00.000+08:00

The world changes, but we do things over and over again for the same reasons. We do not stop, because we want to feel alive and forget that we are going to die.

光之翼

2008-09-09T23:24:00.000+08:00

静静的按下电源开关
屏幕的色彩越来越亮
在虚拟的城市找一个
让心灵休息的地方
塑料的键盘滴答发响
机器的声音温柔呼唤
放弃了不完美的肉身
跃出了现实的天窗

高速的联机传送思想
跳跃的文字透露愿望
安慰的话比亲密拥抱
彷佛更真实的触感

屏幕的色彩依旧发亮
机器的声音继续呼唤
在网络的海洋找不到
让欲望躲藏的地方
神秘的信道即将开放
渴望的心情兴奋不安
放弃了太疲倦的肉身
跃出了现实的天窗

张开透明翅膀
朝着月亮飞翔
搜寻最美一个
现世的天堂
飞过夜的尽头
拥抱你的温柔
乘着幻想的风
散落无数的光芒

18 SG (contain coarse language)

2008-09-01T02:03:00.000+08:00

SERIOUSLY YOU SHOULD JUST FUCK OFF
FUCK OFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

WHO THE HELL DO U THINK YOU ARE??? WHAT RIGHTS DO U HAVE TO FUCK WITH OTHER PEOPLE'S MIND????? IS IT BECAUSE U DUN HAVE A MIND?? FUCK U!! FUCK OFF

OMG SERIOUSLY GROW UP U FUCKER..... HOW OLD ARE YOU ALREADY??? USE YOUR BRAIN TO THINK OK? woops my bad..... I FORGOT U DUN HAVE A FUCKING BRAIN!! GROW UP PLSSSSS ITS DAMN OBVIOUS THAT WE ALL HATE YOU SO PLSSSS DUN ACT LIKE U ARE SO COOOL COS YOU ARE FUCKING NOT COOL, U ARE NOT EVEN COOL WHEN YOU ARE FUCKING!!! SO JUST DO US A FAVOUR AND FUCK YOURSELF IN THE CORNER OR FUCK YOURSELF OUT OF THIS WORLD

TO FUCK WITH ALL YOUR ACTS AND METAPHORE, WE DUN REALLY CARE, COS ITS DAMN OBVIOUS, WE KNOW EVERY FUCKING THINGS U ARE DOING. TOO DAMN FUCKING OBVIOUS YOU FAKE FUCKERRRRR

SO I'M FUCKING ASKING U TO FUCK OFF HERE WITHOUT ANY METAPHORES.... U REALISE IT NOW? STRAIGHT FORWARD JUST FUCKING FUCK OFF. YOU WILL MAKE LIFE SO MUCH EASIER!!!!

GROW UP AND BE A MAN, DO THE RIGHT THING, WHERE ARE YOUR BALLS????????????????????????????????? DO U EVEN HAVE BALLSSS?? OH PLS!! FOR FUCK SAKES GO FIND BACK YOUR BALLS AND FIXED IT BACK TO YOUR DICK MAN!!!

feel so much fucking better now.....
if anyone feels that they have read this somewhere before, yes i copied that blog's idea.
feel free to laugh at it

Bad hair day!

2008-08-25T22:58:00.000+08:00

she's from china

she's mad

she's super crazy

and the ultimate......

professor X's hair (is that even a hair?)

2008-08-21T00:39:00.000+08:00

It's 12.39am and i am excited.
I don't really know what am i excited about, but i think its because i just finished my assignment

I'm always getting all the excitement at the wrong hour of the day >.<
Now how am i suppose to sleep ah.....

if only i could feel such excitement during lectures........

2008-08-18T00:44:00.000+08:00

Court official: "you have created your own legend, and you shall be prosecuted for that. The 13 lives you had taken shall join us today to see you perish for the last time"

Executioner: "He's...... He's innocent!!"

Crowd: "He's an angel!!!"

Court official: "An Angel? Very well, but remember this... I'll be looking at you when you're laid on the cross and the twelve blows are crashing down on your limbs. When the crowd is finally tired of your screams and wandered home, I will climb up through your blood and sit beside you. I will look deep into your eyes... and drop by drop I will trickle my disgust into them like burning acid until... finally... you perish."

--perfume--

2008-08-12T01:04:00.000+08:00

"I am waiting, for the waves to come one day and sweep away all my sorrow, to be buried deep under the sea, and to be left there eternally"

Greatness in you

2008-08-03T23:09:00.000+08:00

They say today is the day.

They have long packed their stuff in anticipating of this day. They are ready and shall all leave today. "We leave before sun rise, and take the earliest train. This should get us out of here in no time!" and that was the plan. Nobody ever hesitate or objected because they could not care about leaving home. It was as if there were nothing left to be missed, only dark corners and shredded papers. It would be almost perfect for dark creatures that linger around the house, but to them this is nothing, they have darker places to go.

In them, there is this boy. He was the youngest and had no clue about life then. He was just following the crowd. He do not understand why he needs to follow them, but he remembered the dark alley where he was running away from someone, or something. And then he bumped into one of them and found safety in their arms. They did nothing much but it was weird that he found comfort with them as company.

And now there he is, in the train. He do not know where are they going for they never told him. They all had reasons not to tell him, and it has become clearer when the train reaches its first station, that Rhea and Gaea left. Then the next station comes right after Gaea steps out of the train. It was platform "986 of Tartarus" where Thea, Metis and Atlas left. He do not understand why are they not going in a crowd anymore. Neither does he understand where has all the other passengers gone to. "Did they all left at the first two stations? Did they all disappeared into thin air? Or did Chronus devour them all?", with his last thought, he looked up to Chronus and saw him licking his perfect, long, slender fingers. Those perfect fingers were obviously made for playing the piano, but he knows that Chronus sometimes use them to dig brains of his preys from their eye...

They have finally reached the next stop, Chronus steps up and walk slowly to the entrance but stops at the landing stairs. He stands for a while and turns back to look at the boy. Their eyes meet, it is not a scary look, but instead there is an aura of love and warmth emitting all around him. The train has start to move again, and Chronus is in no hurry of getting down, he smiles to the boy and then says "you are great", before jumping off the full speed train.

Now the boy is alone in the train. The rest of his crowd has disappear too and only Sally is left. She walks towards the boy and hold his hands, then talks to the boy......

They boy wakes, and find himself in the train with a few hundreds other passenger. Sally is no where to be seen, and he could not remember what happen after sally spoke to him. He only remembered she said something about something great, he could not remember what is that, that was great, but he knows that it is so unbearably great that it would make fate and faith humble. He tries to remember what is that Sally had said, but only succeed to forget more.

There he is now, in the train that he has no idea where is it heading to.
And there he is, alone with a few hundred other passenger that he wishes not to speak with
He has given up on remembering what was told, and probably has even forgot about sally or the other people.

"Today was the day" he thought.

liebe

2008-06-28T00:09:00.000+08:00

Ich glaube, wir passen gut zueinander.
liebe dich

2008-06-09T14:23:00.000+08:00

"And now the rules are different, things that we thought to be true, turn out not to be. And it seems that when we give up on what was, that's when things that we thought improbable or impossible even happen right before your eyes..."

Breath me

2008-06-08T16:22:00.003+08:00

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

jump baby jump!

2008-06-06T16:31:00.002+08:00

ready......??

JUMP!!

Strike a pose~

pose 2~~~

get ready for landing.....

landed safely (phew....)

I think i should get a better camera

Proposal

2008-06-03T02:08:00.001+08:00

let be your finest words

"Will you marry me?"

给你 ~

2008-05-18T19:53:00.001+08:00

病向淺醫
人听收屍

吟吟听听
是非非非
宁缺忽滥
宁虚忽假

一思三为
人神共愤
赐予二字
漠非绝交

绝交绝交
绝而不交
出而不逍
入耳不道
怀如涌潮
快狠即斩
破恶摧断

末儿开开
玩完小笑

Gay-not

2008-05-12T20:22:00.001+08:00

Many people has commented about my pose in this picture
well...
THAT'S NOT GAY!!

that's just a

Androgynous pose

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Androgyny

peace! :)

风景

2008-05-12T00:50:00.000+08:00

风，吹阿吹吹阿吹

树，在动摇在动摇

它，起了根断了茎

它，失了魂失了心。。。

风，还在吹还在吹

树，还在摇还在摇。。。。

迷惘

2008-05-11T03:48:00.001+08:00

关于

生活的选择题。。。。

答案在风里

More vet school quotes and phrases

2008-05-07T02:24:00.000+08:00

"don't aim, just shot!"
- me

"if in doubt, just write everything."
- jenny richardson, referring to exam questions

"who needs tress when we have soda lime??"
- Gary Lo

Elizabeth : "clinical signs include a foul smelling vaginal discharge ...."
Gary Lo: "cau cibai??"
Me: "......"

David: ".... cattle hindquater should be wider than the shoulders to minimize dystocia"
Me: "sexy ass?"

Me: "did you see steph just now?"
Jeffrey: "which steph? Aureus??"
Me: "wakakakakakakakakakaka"

幻雾

2008-04-29T00:07:00.000+08:00

有一天晚餐吃汤面是，觉得面条太长
结果我就拿起剪刀伸入汤面里
剪剪剪剪剪剪剪剪剪剪剪！！

哪知面条还真是生粉煮成烂面，
剪不断，还理太乱
整碗汤面变成了面糊 =.="

结果整晚来回徘徊,
考虑着应不应该把他倒掉还是把它吃掉
倒掉总觉得太浪费, 毕竟花了这么多时间去煮的
吃掉又觉得太恶心, 毕竟我还是个蛮挑食的家伙

所以那晚的那碗汤面aka面糊呢,
还在雪柜里,
应该是在等着发霉吧,
放越久, 就越不健康

是不是应该在发霉之前,忍住把它吃完呢
还是在他还没发霉之前, 把它扔掉了
以保住它所剩余的尊严

Goddes

2008-04-04T16:35:00.000+08:00

All hail goddess Kahlen!!!

寂寞得害怕

2008-03-27T04:40:00.001+09:00

小时候的寂寞是没有朋友。
长大了，寂寞就是比那时候没有朋友更寂寞。

还记得当年的夏天吗？
那些被带走的，都再也没回来。

我想
如果很爱一个人，
我们能接受这种事吗？
如果有一天他死了
我们又会怎样释怀呢？

我们都知道
离别这种事
是生命的一部分
不过这样真的行吗?

如果很爱一个人,
不害怕他离去吗?

还有就是
我们必须接受
离去之后，
无论我们在哪爱的人不在身边了
这样真的行吗?

也不知道为什么我们的世界是这样的
也不知道我们剩下的日子是怎样的

这就是寂寞
寂寞得害怕

ROTTNEST ISLAND!!!!

2008-03-25T23:35:00.000+09:00

i went to Rottnest island during the easter break. me no need say more la, u guys see the pics

sun rise from the ferry

a bunch of bored cam whores

cam whores again

more cam whores (they are not together ok? pls dun missunderstand ok? althought they look like together but they are not together ok?? pls dun missunderstand ok???)

MORE cam whore..
woops, that's a quoka

ship wreck

omg me so yeng

I'M ON TOP OF THE WORLD... (more likely ontop of the rock)

going to walk across a desert (sand dune)

Jacyn: "pls dun go matthew"
Me: "lan hoi la (go away)"

later on...... (Jacyn's revenge)

back again

the 4 gods of sand dune (sampah)

random bitch

random light house
funny, they have many light houses in one island

this remind me of taiwan

the water is actually red
(i think some female swimmer up stream AV lor)

Angelina Jollie and Brad Pitt

Angelina So-lli and Brad Pig

america's next top model

more cam whoring while waiting for the ferry

annie suddenly become guy....

sam seng kia!!!

wakakak overall the trip was great!! although we have to cycle all day up and down hill and had only 2 hours of sleep the night before lol

super nice, wanna go back again ah!

random bitch

2008-03-16T14:38:00.000+09:00

went to the beach ages ago, and i just found this pic!

死神

2008-03-07T15:32:00.000+09:00

如果手上没有剑，我就不能保护你。

如果一直握着剑，我就无法包紧你。

i need a getaway?

2008-03-05T22:58:00.000+09:00

life right now is life-less

my everyday uni starts 8.30am in the morning, and i finish at 4.30 with labs or clinic rotations
then when i come home, i feel so exhausted. i just wanna do nothing and just sleeeeeep

uni is really draining the life out of me!!
classes after classes, practicals after practicals
then when i come home, have to prepare for exams and assignmentsss
and omg i sound like a whining bitch!

i feel so lonely nowadays, on the other hand, i feel so lazy to go out
i see people around me,
people that i know and people that i dun know who are around me everyday
i wander, how are they feeling today? where are they going now? what are they doing now?
is he going for a date? is that her baby? does she has a boyfriend? is he staying with his parents? is his parents still alive??

i wander what stories do they have?

everyone has their own stories to live on
their stories continue everyday and night,
till the end when they stop living, and call it "the end" like how every stories end

my story is this, uni
oh well, that is what a student should do. that is what a student responsibility is.
and until i graduate, this will be my story
i will find my strength and confident to live my story

so, can you tell me your story?
can i be in your story?

etudes

2008-02-29T00:41:00.000+09:00

his speech flows like water, and it carries flower petals and leaves

the water would move swiftly through beds of rock and sand

they know it would hurt, but they never ask to slow down

and occasionally fishes come up to wander around them,

some would nibble at them while some other just admire the colors they have

they who pass through continue to flow

and they would experience the same thing again and again

but they would continue to flow

to where? till when?

and then he stops, and started walking down his path

alone, carrying nothing

The trend rigt now

2008-02-24T23:03:00.000+09:00

What i like now:

1) they try to make me go to rehab but i say no no no~

2) "please don't stop the music---- mamase mamasa mamakosa"

3) back to black - amy whinehouse

4) my updated PSP

5) if tomorrow is now, and now is the pass, then now would be the future and present would be pass, so where are we?

6) "her face looks like her vibrator ran out of battery"

7) my scrubs

8) justin timberlake

u know what, i think i'm just desperate to try to write something on my blog.

Happy new year 2008 -- 2007 year in review

2008-01-01T01:14:00.000+09:00

Happy 2008 new year everyone!!!
so its 12.05am now, and what am i doing....? Sitting in front of the TV, watching "Kung Fu" on Astro Celestia channel, and it's the N time i have been watching this movie liao......
wakakak what a nice way to spend new years eve and my first few minutes of new years day

2007 is history already, it has been a year of............ i can't really remember, but there are a few events that i should highlight, and try to make 2007 a rememberal year :P

"carrier wise" 2007 is my 3rd year in vet school, and i have been taking some really interesting subjects, and learning many things that are more practical and more relatable to what doctors have been doing in vet clinics. Not to forget, a whole year of pathology with Mandy O'hara........ didn't like it, but i didn't really hate it. She wasn't mean, but she wasn't "nice" either, and that can really make uni life miserable!! On the other hand the Murdoch farm animals are being exceptionally nice this year: the pigs are less noisier, and the cattle are less aggressive than usual, and practical exams with them are easy, and perphaps, fun!

love life ler, 2007 is......................................... no comment
i already had it pull out from my brain and stored in somewhere else for future further reference, like how Dumbledoor (whatever the spelling is, not a fan of fairy potter) stores his memories about Vouldermolt (again whatever the spelling is, not a big fan of the undead-facelss-dark-art bald wizards) in a big swirling water tank.
just one word to sum the whole scene: fruitless but happening (ok that's 3 words)

forget the boring stuff, now here comes the climax of 2007...... one of my friends, who insist he should be called "J" (although some other alphabet is more appropriate i think), has slept with a spanish guy!!!! that's nothing right? cause sleeping around and promiscuous-ity is too damn normal in this "unholy" 21th century. but the thing is, it's Mr J and Mr spanish guy.... not Miss J and Mr spanish guy......... shocking???FUCK YEAH!! that's what 2 beers on a Saturday night can make you do. But this site is a peace loving hippy blog, so yeah we dun discriminate people who have different needs. All the best with J and his Mr Spanish who are happily together now.

job wise, i had my first paid job of my life (yeah after 20 years :P), it was a small but very important pose in that restaurant -- dish washer cum delivery boy. FUCKING IMPORTANT OK? if i don't wash the dishes, then the chinse restaurant would become an indian restaurant (eg. eat with their hands on banana leaves). But the pay was crappy, and the boss was an ass. It's the way he talks that i don't like, but other people say "that's how Hong Kies speaks". I say "that's how a Hong Kie BOSS speaks" lol. I quit after 2 months................. and i thought they would hired a new guy, named dishwasher (the machine). but as expected they didn't, its just the rest of the other workers have to wash my dishes hehehehehe
then the next semester, i started working experience at the VetWest Veterinary Hospital, which is so much fun (although unpaid), and i really learned a lot when working there.

another highlight of 2007 was my 21st b'day party, it was a blast! so many people - so many families, so little friends..... T_T i'm not complaining, cos i had a bladdy good time, and some bladdy expensive presents :DDDDD
the after party was even better.... i shall never forget that night lol

2007 is also the year of kearsley rise!! there has been so much happening there, from fights to love, laughters to tears, breakfast to supper, pot luck to eating out, after hours mc donald to afternoon swimming sessions has all been really really really happening! definitely something to remember!

so yeah, those were the highlights of 2007. not too much right? And not really gossip magazine cover material or CNN news, but it did took me 2 hours to write this!!! its almost 2am liao! it took so long i think because of Kung Fu and X-men 3 on astro :P
i duno what's on TV now, because my Mum changed channel halfway through X-men. but ler hor, right now is the TV watching my mum... she's already asleep on the couch lol

so what will be on 2008? I'll tell you on 2009 january 1st, probably between 12-2am lol
happy new year la again, i need to go shower liao, and scrub out all the BBQ smell from my pores.
good night all!

Parasitology paper

2007-11-19T15:16:00.000+09:00

"Question 20: 10 marks

A client visits your clinic in desperate need of advice. He has attempted ti treat his dog's flea infestation using various "flea soaps" and powders, obtained at a local supermarket. Each product drastically reduced the number of fleas on the dog, but the dog becomes reinfested shortly after the treatment. There are fleas everywhere and are now attacking your client and his family members. Describe the life history of the flea to your client and explain to your client why the dog is becoming reinfested. Design a flea control program for this client. Make sure you address the three essentials of a successful flea control program (burning down the house is not an option)"

damn WHAT?? can't burn down the house??
shit there goes my 5 marks
have to make up another point now.......

Mixed Feelings

2007-11-14T02:13:00.000+09:00

I'm not happy, nor am i sad!

There is no reason to cry and i don't feel like laughing either

I'm having mixed feelings
I think it's because of the finals
I'm just stressed up with exams

no hope, no love, no glory, no happy ending
so everything is fucked up.................

I FEEL VULNARABLE AND THIS SUCKS!!!

what time is it?

2007-11-08T02:07:00.000+09:00

waking up early in the morning
my senses were numb,
and i lost my only possesion - time

i had a headache. it felt like my head was on fire.
who would have thought this could happen to me?
i tried to reached out for my usual cup on the bed side table,
but the stinging pain on my elbow halt me
i stop for a while, leaving my hand hanging on air
then i decided i didn't care,
and stretch my hands fully out,
out out to space
out out to emptiness...
where is my cup?? have i lost it as well???
my mind blanked for a while
and i fall back to sleep

waking up late at night
my senses still numb
tell me, what time is it?

find me my time!
put on flyers, lost notice, wanted signs
knock from door to door
ask people from malls
search underneath your tables, drawers, beds
look, search, seek
to find my time

what about my cup?
wait till i have time then i'll search for my cup

the situation i am in right now

2007-10-25T18:01:00.000+08:00

i am currently happy with life
:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

there is so much more that i wan, like money la, time la, grades la, well-beingness la blablablablabla and there is sooooooo much more to complain

but am currently just grateful for what i have, and how i am

let us all be happy and be grateful for what we have
life is so much easier that way

:0) :0) :0)

the question about choice

2007-09-14T00:28:00.000+08:00

life is full of choices..
HELL YEAH!

every movement is a choice
when u walk, do you chose to step your left foot or right foot first?
when u are showering do you chose to wash your hair first or your face first
when u eat, do u chose to eat the vege first, rice first or meat first????
life is full of choices

and still, many people say "i have no choice"
of course you do have a choice!!
you'll always have choice unless someone has a gun on your head and force u to do something,
then you'll have no choice (oh really?)

A or B?
A is a better choice to you, cos it would benefit you more
B is not a good choice at all, cos it gives u lots of trouble and problems
so in this cases, people will say: "i have no choice, so i choose A"
which is crap! because the question asks "A or B?"
more precisely "do you want to chose A or B??"

so i do think that people who say they have no choice are somehow irresponsible
they choose A because they blame B is too harsh, so they have to only go with A
a case of victimising one self to choice B

we always have choices in life
even when someone pointing a gun on your head, you still have a choice
you can choose to obey the gun holder and live
or you can choose to not obey and get shot in the head

we are not afraid of choices
but its rather the consequences that we are afraid of
we do have a choice, but its rather does that choice make you happy?
I can choose A or B, it's just the matter of "which would I feel happier with?"

I choose A because I don't want the troubles from choosing B
make a choice, and take responsible for it
no matter the consequences are good or bad

things that won't go away

2007-09-11T00:34:00.000+08:00

there are some things in life that will never leave you
wounds, scars, people, ideas or thoughts,

and also... memories

you thought you have got over it
and it doesn't seems to bother you at all now
as if life is no more related to how it was back then
and you seems to have forget about it

but slowly and quietly, it does creep back to you sometimes
it will come back
and hit you at times you never expect
then you breakdown, and you depress
and it seems like now is how it was back then
but slowly, you occupy yourself
with friends, work, music, food, movies
and u slowly forget it
while it slowly fades away

was it every away??

it seems like its embedded into you
how you are right now, is determined by how it was back then
no matter how hard u try to change
you never change what has already been set in you
its unchangeable

things like this, they never go away
they haunt you forever
backthen was long long long time ago
but back then is still here, now at the present

what can u do?
get over it? forget it? suppress it?
if only we can
if only...

take a deep breath,
let it in, let it out
live with it
and life goes on

this is not a threat

2007-09-03T02:49:00.000+08:00

it seems like nobody is reading my blog at all
so.......

if i dun get at least 5 comments for this post, I'm gonna shut down this web site

oceania

2007-08-31T01:09:00.000+08:00

they call me god
and hum me songs from the depth
they dance for me
of silent movement in the dark
like stingrays across the sky....
every movement of that I can find in myself

in return i bestow myself
I allow wings for their men
and set them sail, free at sea
I grant pearls for their women
and set them beauty for eternity

may you all drench in me
and feel my droplets dancing on your skin
be one with me
and feel my waves sweep through your veins

when you have done good for yourself
I shall give you land
and you shall seek your glory

may you find dry embrace in this continent
for I cannot shelter you anymore
but do not forget what made you and your path
for I can make wipe your island
and turn it back to me

vet school quotes

2007-08-25T00:33:00.000+08:00

"did you bastards even do rations??!!"
-- David, at nutrition workshop

"there are two types of orphan: congenital orphans and acquired orphans"
-- Jeffrey, bored at microbiology lecture

"One women in Western Australia had actually contracted this parasite. Unfortunately.... she was treated before we were able to take any pictures"
-- Andrew Thompson, parasitology lecturer

humping the door: "I'm a neutrophil and the door is too big for me to engulf"
-- Sandy McLachlan, clinical pathology lecturer

"Chemical disinfectants are very important, because you can't burn your hands"
-- David Hampson, microbiology lecturer

"if we let you sort groups yourself, then the girls will group together, the computer geeks will group together and the SUSHI EATERS will group together"
-- Jim Cummin, Form and function lecture

collective thoughts

2007-08-21T22:31:00.000+08:00

"you do things for yourself, not for others"

if you stick to this concept, won't you be a bit too (just a bit) too fucking selfish?
what if you are doing something for someone because in the end it makes you happy as well?
bull shit~

it should be rephrase:

"you do things for yourself, and take responsible for what you have done. because you know it's for the better of yourself and others."

at least that's what we tell ourselves......

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"we are little boys, comforted, protected and all so cotton candy-ly made up and un-ready for the big bad real world"

its time to show them who we are and what we are capable of doing.
but then, who are you doing it for? yourself or for them?
do they know what's best for us? are "constructive" advices too destructive for our ego?
they assume they do, and we will assume they do. but not yet, not now

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"i deserve at least some credits for what i have done so far!"

Get over it. It means you are not doing good enough to earn any credits.
nobody is going to pamper anyone, we are no more children.

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"i hate you to death"

hey~ at least someone still thinks of you after you die

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"people kiss you in the cheek and stab you in the back"

i couldn't agree more. such is life.

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"if you love me, you wouldn't do that to hurt me"

if you love someone, you won't even think they are hurting you.
people do hurt each other
but people don't intentionally do things to hurt their love ones.

things

2007-08-18T19:10:00.000+08:00

dead things

fragile things

little things.....

fragile little things

little dead things.......

fragile little dead things......

interlude

2007-08-17T16:32:00.000+08:00

我会为你点灯
照耀你的路程

也谢谢你给我的灿烂

i'm back

2007-08-16T23:41:00.000+08:00

oh damn you know i'm back
i'm still me
whoever that is
you'll know it's me

things have changed
people have changed
for good or for bad?
to hell with that
for i don't know what's good and what's bad

i have a twist within now
like lemon like lime
i've got shine to share
and i'll have more to care
but i'm still me
whoever that is
you'll know its me

i still have love
and i still have hate
but love is more
inside my big fat head

i still have faith
and i still have fear
what will u see out there
if you haven't reach and u didn't dare?

am i better or am i worse?
i have convinced my inner devil
to do the bads
but have i not do deeds
for them and for me?
i leave this in peace
for you be god and judge me of my sins

i didn't change
because i'm still me
the essential life and energy of me is still in me

but yes i have changed
and with time and life
i will still change
for its important now and forever then

i'm still me but i have changed
but i'm still me
but i have changed
but i'm still me
but i have changed
but i'm still me
but i have changed
but ...............
...................
..................
.................

whoever that is
you'll know it's me

i'm still not dead

2007-07-24T21:55:00.000+08:00

still alive and annoying the crap out of everyone

love yall

exam question

2007-06-12T15:49:00.000+08:00

exam period now
but kenot tahan i must post this question that was in our nutrition exam paper
we were ask to calculate the apparent digestilibity of a new feed for pigs
this is not the exact question, but just the scenario on how they found this new feed.....

"mubuland produces octagonal chips from underground bananarama collected by male farrets with cothes peg and plastic bags....."

so thanks to mubuland i have to calculate the protein digestibility of the bananarama by-product leftover from making the octagonal chips.......

fine sense of humour our lecturer has....

note to my loyal blog readers~

2007-04-28T13:11:00.000+08:00

Matthew is too busy having sex with Murdoch Veterinary school, so he has not been updating any post in the past, and don't think will update any post in the near future

seriously, "who needs to have sex when the vet school fucks u everyday??" (Gary Loh 2007)

i try to update my post evently

love yall!
matt

narrogin farm experience

2006-12-09T03:12:00.000+09:00

ok first thing first, SOMEBODY ACTUALLY COMPLAINED THAT Y I SO LONG NO UPDATE BLOG!!! it's definately exciting, coz someone is actually reading and is looking forward to read my blog XD.... so touched T_T

Was missing in action for the last two weeks, cos had my farm prac experience at narrogin.
narrogin is 2 hours away from perth, but the farm is a bit off narrogin. it's actually nearer to the other shire, but still considered in narrogin la

The farm is called "Nepowie", it's a sheep and crop farm with 16k of sheep on 10,000ha of land (30kmX30km). owned by the White family.

The people there are sooooooo nice, definately different to the city people. they are so friendly, helpful and easy going.

So what have i done during the two weeks?
definately shifted a lot of sheep. we had been moving mobs of sheeps from paddock to paddock (hundreads to thoudands of sheep per mob).

And i've learnt how to ride a motorcycle (two wheel), coz it was needed to shift the sheep. hehhe it was really fun riding one, and i know i would never have the chance to do that in malaysia.... coz my parents think it is dangerous.... and it is dangerous! but when you're in the farm, with so many land and literally no traffic, it is a hell lot easier and fun to do it. didn't had any motorbike accidents there :P

Then i've been to the neighbour's dam to water ski!! yeap during the weekend, the farmer and his family bring their boats and jet ski down to the neighbouring farm for an afternoon of fun and relax. the dam is not big, but enough for boats, jet ski and water ski-ing.
I must say, water ski-ing might look easier.... but it is NOT.... i have to drown a few times before i barely just get it lol

the neighbour's dam

me trying to ski (0 second)

me ski-ing (2 seconds)

me drowning (5 seconds)

body surfing at the end :P

me and the gang at the end of the day

And I KILLED A LAMB!!! the lamb had a serious fly strike (fly infested on its flesh, and maggots eat the meat inside out and cause blood poison) it was pretty weak and suffering a lot. so the farmer decided to kill it to end its pain. SO he asked me, whether would i like to kill it. ofcoz he ask, and he gave me a choice. And i choose to do it.... coz i thought it would be an experience that may be somehow somewhere somewhat useful too my carrer next time. but it was a terrible experience. the gun wasn't working so i have to use a knife to cut it's throat and then break its neck. everyone asked why not just give it a sleeping neddle..... but unfortunately only vets can do that, and its too exspensive. so there was me, alone with the knife on my hand and a half dead sheep in front of me. i hesitated a while, and was really nervous. but to think of what the farmer said: "a short pain to end a long pain", i have to do it then. i had problems doing it alone, and i couldn't do it the right way (jab into the throat and pull the knife outwards), so the knife came in from the outside of the neck.... and i have to "saw" till the knife hits the neck. after that i feel extremely uncomfortable...... but it still hasn't ended yet, i have to break the neck fast to .... and i had major porblem doing that as well...... but in the end, i got it done, with myself feeeling damn crappy. really it was the worst moment of my life. emotioanlly it was really challenging to get over it. i was stunt for a moment before i regain myself and head back to meet the farmer. i remember while i was driving back everything seems so crappy. i talked to the farmer about it after that, and he said it was normal "i feel crappy everytime after killing them and even though i've been doing it for 20 years, i still dun like it. but this is part of what a farmer must do."
so pls...... i dun like it, and i dun want to do it again.

I've also witness my farmer kill his sheep for lamb meat. the same method as well, but he does it quick and effective. it was gruesome to see sheep being kill, but it was even worse to do it yourself. u might think that this is all wrong and disgusting and gruesome. but if things like this dun happen, how the hell do we get our meat from? i suddenly do think that we need to respect our butcher lor!!! lol

They say killing is bad karma.... DAMN RIGHT!!! the next day when i was shifting a mob of sheep alone with the ute, i had a some sort of a minor accident... the land cruiser got stuck when i was passing through a bank (small hill)..... then i drove towards two humps on 60km/h without knowing it.... man i tell you the car was jumping up and down, i remember myself flying up from my seat, and hitting on the roof of the car while i see dust and everything in the car flying everywhre!!! luckily i was alright, and the ute was ok too!!

And one thing: the farmer hardly get my name right!! i've been called from mark, marcus, mitch, micheal too mike, with mitch being called the most time!!! on the other hand when his 15yo son found out that i dun have an i-pod, he was SHOCKED.... coz he thinks every asian has an ipod and can throw knives like in kung fu movie.... too stereotypic of him lol. he even said that asians farm i-pod in asia lol

his 15yo son

So that were the interesting stuffs i've did during the two weeks in narrogin. i had a lot of fuuuuuuun, it was such a great experience!! all my life i have been living in the city, and this rural outback bush farm is such an eye open for me!! it was really really really great!! i'm starting to miss them already!!

sheeeeeep

more sheep

lambs (meeeh-maaattt.... they are calling me)

farm scenary lol

smilley sheep!!

shifting lost lambs

pre and post exam stress

2006-11-23T03:04:00.000+08:00

hello peeepzZzz, its been a long time since i blog a decent post!
exams are finally over, there should be nothing else to worry for the whole year lol.

so before exams, it's always a stresssful situiation. so many things to study, so little time, so little brain capacity and so many distractions. it all started when i got all my assingments back. they were a bit less than OK, just pass. but they all had similar comments:

1) immunology essay: good research but scientific writing needs improvement. read out oud to assist with grammas + editing

2)journal appraisal: general sturctures ok, but many grammatical and spelling errors

3) farm report: gramma and spelling need improvement

i was like DAAAAAMN!! gramma and spelling errors?? what was microsoft WORDS doing??? dun they check everything for you! they need some serious techinical upgrade man!!!

oh well, i was too lazy to prove read them anyway. so lesson learnt:
"always prove read your assingments, and dun ever depend on microsoft words to check gramma and spelling error for you."

to think that was stressful enough? i'm so naive, the real stress come in preparing for the exams. and the first exam i had was my farm practical exam, about handling cattles, sheeps, pigs and horses. i started my first session with cattles, we were suppose to bleed, tie some knots and check a little bit of this and that. it all went alright, i was so stress about not getting blood at first, but the moment i jaaaaaab the neddle into the neck right, there was blood dripping out the neddle!!!! so i quickly jab in the vacumtainer and blood was gushing into the tube like waterfall.... i've never been so grateful and thankful to see blood b4!! we were also asked to check the cow's lactating status (meaning whether does she has milk or not), i was pretty sure when i squeeze her front two teats, she was dry (meaning no milk) coz there weren't any milk to squeeze out. but after i checked, the examiner went on and squeeze the back two teats, and there was jut milk spraying all over the fall..... at that moment i was like "oh wat the fuc....." i nearly cursed!!

horses and pigs went pretty well, but the last session - sheeps, was HORRIBLE!! we were waiting outside the shed for the group before us to finish the exam, and instantly we already saw 4 of our classmate in that group failed..... ofcoz we were all getting tensed about it, the main reason they failed is becoz they couldn't get blood sample from sheeps..... it was the stresssful-est moment to see ppl getting fail by the examiner, it's like u walk in and you are gonna FAIL too!! but oh well i DID NOT fail, coz i manage to get bloood. it was shear luck!!! i jab in once, and the blood just came out, filled the tube 1/5 and that was it!! no more blood! i try moving the neddle in and out a bit, and there wasn't any blood filling the tube anymore!! (usually it works when u do that). LUCKILY, the examiner said that was enough, and WOHOOOOOOO i passed!!
(ps: those that did not, took a sup prac one week later and they all pass!!)

the day after the prac, we had the theory paper. nothing to say, i got OWNED......

then had about one week to study b4 my next two paper, which is on monday and tuesday. i don't like exams that are back to back: doing one paper in one day is demoralising enough and it usually takes about 1-2 days to remolarise myself. when u have two papers for two days in a role, it is more demoralising. and brillantly, i got the day mixed up......... i thought monday's paper is going to be on tuesday and vice versa! luckily i found out like 2 days ago, if not i'm going to be so dead concentrating on the wrong subject!!!

monday papers was crap, but it was bit REmoralising coz i THINK everyone wasn't happy as well. they were all complaining like me, so its like doing bad and not feeling so bad, coz everyone feels the same for that paper. then got home, study a bit, slack a bit, till 2am, went to bed and woke up 5am the next morning......

then study a bit more and took the tuesday paper in the morning. that paper was alright, coz i dun care anymore, the only thing i was thinking is to get this exam done and i'm free.

indeed, now i am freeeeeeeeeeeeeee....... but feeling a bit bored. its the emptyness in you when u have nothingto study for all of a sudden, after weeeks of eat sleep study period.

oh well, another few more days till i go for my farm prac. two weeeeeks this time. am looking towards it, coz after that i can fly home~~~~~~~~ to kiss all you peeeepzZzz lol

cool pictures

2006-11-16T00:55:00.000+08:00

some pictures taken during the exam period to release some pre and post exam stress. they were all taken in the airport, while sending a friend off

the new boy band without a recording company XD

ant bite and mayonnaise

2006-11-05T23:57:00.000+08:00

my sister is duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuumb LOL

one afternoon she message me on msn, she told me that she got bitten by an ant. from her description, the ant was less than a 20cent (malaysian) coin, and has a red mark on the middle section of the body.

and i on the other side on the computer got a bit bored, and make up a lie. i told her that the ant was a RED BACK ANT (adopted from the name red back spider) and i told her that it was POISONOUS. so in order to de-toxified her wound, i ask her to apply MAYONNAISE.

so she went into the kicthen to search for mayonnaise, and she cam back to tell me that she couldn't find any!! so i say, if it is this serious of a situiation, i would suggest beating eggs with butter and then apply on the wound. so i think she went into the kitchen to prepare it.

but she was back fast. and she told me that she found mayonnaise liao, and ask me "HOW LONG SHOULD I APPLY FOR???"

obviously with that question, she already had applied mayonnaise on the wound where she got bitten by an ant.......
i couldn't stand it anymore and i broke the joke

see, how duuuumb is she?? LOL

she is a POTATO
so POTATO + MAYONNAISE = POTATO SALAD

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

emotional rollercoaster

2006-10-31T01:59:00.000+08:00

at times u feel SUPER PEEEEEEEEEEK CHEEEEEEK to the miax

at times u feel sooooo glad that u were ever alive

welcome to the emotional rollercoaster, where mood can swing every minute......

in the end of the day, its all nothing but a pass of time, and an interesting part of life

ps: pic demand by popular

gollum song

2006-10-27T12:09:00.000+08:00

Where once was light
Now darkness fools
Where once was love
Love is no more

Don’t say goodbye
Don’t say I didn’t try

These tears we cry
Of falling rain
For all the lies you told us
The hurt the blame

And we will wait
To be so alone
We are lost
We can never go home

So in the end
They will be what I will be
No loyal friend
Was ever there for me

Now we say goodbye
We say you didn’t try

These tears you cry
Have come too late
Take back the lies
The hurt the blame

And u will wait
When u face the end alone
You are lost
You can never go home

You are lost
You can never go home

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super depressing song.... from lotr

on the coffe table

2006-10-23T00:33:00.000+08:00

knowing the truth
but ignoring the fact
i'm blinded with excuses
and there is nothing else left

"i believed"
and i try
but sometimes i lose faith
when it is time for goodbye

another off the list
and another search begin.
it is good experience though
like black widow eating her husband
and then searching for more to hunt.

its time to move on
again!
for there is nothing much to gain

such is life
who else would diassagree?
i would sing "di di di di di~~" in the mornings
and end nights with an "oh well"
although everything is not well.
day just have to come,
and night just have to go.
i just have to show
and you just have to know.

if you don't response
i shall just treasure more
with dignity and pride,
that is all.

interlude

2006-10-22T01:26:00.000+08:00

i'm having a junk food relationship with one of my friends....

ps. junk food is well known for unhealthy

no more perfect

2006-10-09T23:03:00.000+08:00

nobody is perfect, i understood that
but quietly creeping underneath my conciousness,
is the thought that i am "perfect"
i didn't even notice this until a friend came and enlightened me
at that moment, i felt so insecure
like all hopes had been grabed
my confidence shattered into pieces
who am i right now?
i found myself yrs ago,
for all these years being comfortable and confident of myself
now i question my own set of rules to life
what is right or wrong?
what defines good or bad?
does it matter?

i am who i am, take it or leave it
i do thing for myself,
i take responsible only for myself and the things that i do
i am who i am, i am... who am i?

i guess i would have to find out more
life is uncertain, neither is every choice and opinion
there is so much more to life, so many things to learn
"open up, and you shall gain more"

naughty mickey

2006-09-29T14:17:00.000+08:00

yet another drawing by colby...
i duno why, but i luv this mickey a lot. maybe of that bright white teeth? lol

(http://www.xanga.com/Colby3h)

more of the moment

2006-09-28T02:55:00.000+08:00

"decisions are made at the moment, for the moment.
go ahead and follow your heart
they might even lead to failure in the future,
but at least, i had lived my life to the fullest."

everyday i grow stronger and stonger, with every breakdown i climb higher.
it is the moment which i live at, and live for that make life so wonderful!!

prac session - PIGS

2006-09-17T01:19:00.000+08:00

last thursday's animal and society prac was dealing with pigs!

learnt how to tie them, tip them, and estimate their weight.

pigs are actually quite cute, but filthy!!! they will eat everything that fall on the floor, including their own poo. for example, in the pig's pen, one of the pic poo on my classmates shoe, and in a split second, all the other pigs rush by and lick all the shit, and the shoe is clean again =.=""

another thing about pigs is they squeeeeek reallly loud. now i understand why they have the chinese term 杀猪般吵 (as noisy as killing a pig), coz when u r not even going to kill them, they can already shout till your ears "boing!"!! their squeeking are satruday night metro club music equavalant ok? (ps. metro = one of the loud clubs in perth)

one more important thing..... THEY BITE!!
i was bending down and trying to tie one of the pig, then suddenly another pig came from behind and "AAAAAAMM", took a bite on my hip!! not a light bite, i've got bruise and biting marks on my hip after that!! i hope i dun get mad pig disease!

the hardest thing to do during the prac is to estimate the pigs weight, with +/- 10% difference. u can't carry them, cant lift them. u can only estimate by observing their size. however this is particularly important, coz if ur guessing is 10% more or less then the actualy weight, then u shall DEFINATELY fail the exam.....

that prac was not as bad as i expected, although lots of people have been complaining that pig's prac are the worse! so far, i still think cow's prac are the worse...... at least pigs dun kick shit onto my face :P

deep thoughts

2006-09-11T23:34:00.000+08:00

september 11

in god's will you kill?

comic

2006-09-10T17:41:00.000+08:00

this comic was drawn by my friend Colby Ho, one of my mates from hong kong lol. he is very talented in using photoshop to draw this kind of comic.

weeks earlier we were watching silent hill in the cinema, and this happened when the bad guy tear of the girl's skin completely....... (note i'm the dog-like guy)
my reaction wasn't that like TAT ok??? i was just feeling high and excited XD

(colby's site: http://www.xanga.com/Colby3h )

wrestling with the sheeps

2006-09-07T20:55:00.000+08:00

wednesday's prac class, wrestling with the sheeps! (sheep handling session)

results:
matthew : 10 points
sheepS: 249.03 points

sheeps are cute, they dun kick like alpacas, dun shit like cows and dun bite like horses.... but they can RUN, too good at running.

from that prac, we learnt how to catch a sheep, how to bring them down their bum with legs up, and how to tie them up so they won't run away. catching a sheep was easy, when u can catch any sheep from a flock, just go from its back, "kiap" its body between your legs, and hold the neck, then they bassically follow where u want them to go.

tying them down is also not hard, but have to learn all the diff ways of tying nods! damn sounds like a boy scouts work! the hard thing is, bending down to reach to their legs while tying them down. and when u r not fimiliar with your nods, u basically just bend until u broke back.

and then the worse part...... (there are always catches to my blogs), taking blood sample (again...). it seems that most of the asians in the prac always have problem taking blood sample, last time it was the cow and now it was the sheep!! sheep are actually harder than cows i think, coz they got thick wool!! and its hard to see where the vein is.........
so one of the prac helper suggest that we get a shean (watever the spelling is, it means botak) sheep, so it is easier to poke the neddle in. but one problem, there are only 3 shean sheeps in the whole pack.... and like i say, cathcin any sheep in a pack is easy, but catching a certain sheep in a pack is hellish!!!
we do it in pair, so one partner hold the sheep and another take the blood sample. so i was suppose to catch the sheep while my partner take blood sample.... and by the time i caught the shean sheep, i was already panting and exhausted like nobody's bussiness, my poor partner have to wait so long lol

finding where the location of the vein is also not a easy job..... squatted down for like 30 minutes, before i was not even sure where vein is and just ting tong tiang poke in the neddle. first neddle fail no blood come out, i was thinking to myself "oh crap, here we go again".... but THANK GOD, 2nd neddle got BLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD come out.... i was so overwhelmed at the moment........ and when i stood up, i felt light headedness....... squatted to long, low blood pressure on my brain........

so i got the sheep, tied it, caught it, fliped it over, took blood sample, shave its nail, clean its hoof, and i deserve a 10 point

and the sheep, fliped me, made me broke back, light headedness, damn heavy to flip, run here and there, got shit on its body, panting, exhausted, muscle pain, shit all over my hands, too wooly to find vein etc etc, deserves a 249.3 points

you're a champion, sheeps~

小插曲 - interlude 7

2006-09-06T01:39:00.000+08:00

5th of september,

blythe
she came to life and started singing.
"i love you my dear,
i want to look for you
although i duno where i am.
however i know u shall come looking for me,
because u know how i feel.
i love you my dear,
i am the one for you"

it was live through national tv, and even braodcasted to other countries
the whole world was listening to her

2006-09-02T02:34:00.000+08:00

a choice is made, and i shall move one with my life

the past doesn't matter, and i shall move on with my life

the present is now and the future is here, and i shall move on with my life

my eyes are shut, my senses numb and i shall move on with my life

i'm sometimes stucked and sometimes stopped

but i shall move on with my life

i don't feel terrible. i just feel numb

for everything i have done, for every step i have taken, for every emotion felt
i am only living my life
you should too

SPECIALLY FOR YOU DANIEL LEE!!

2006-08-31T00:19:00.000+08:00

this blog is dediacted for daniel lee wei zhi (aka nyamku aka nyamuk pondan)
other ppl can just skip to the next post pls

dan.... ADMIT THAT U SO WANNA TRANSFER TO MURDOCH......
and i know u envy me, ur chikoness lives forever
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

CHOSE YOUR WORDS WISELY when leaving a comment, these girls can be fiesty LOL

psp attraction

2006-08-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

this is my housemate's psp. he has this dj game which i am totally crazy about for the past few weeks! i cannot explain this dreadful passion towards this game. it's just notes passing through a bar, and u need to press the correct button as each notes passes through the bar, at the right time..... very fun right???

"DJ MAX" game for psp

but its not about the notes or the bar, its about the STATISFACTION!! when u get like 500++ combos in the game, u shall understand..... the consequtive hitting-the-right-button reflex is just overwhelmingly statisfying

~~~ "push me, and then just touch me, until i get my, STATISFACTION" ~~~

the notes are the round thing, and the yellow line is the bar
ps. break coz i was taking the photo and the game was running

another thing is that the music. every song is gooood listen, so good too good kenot good anymore. they have the nostalgic effect which brings you out of this world. and the graphic is supeeer cool lor!!

chose a song

mtv of blythe

a bit blur lar the pic, but the real one very cool

]

my favourite song to play!! wakaka

so it all adds up:
good music + good graphics + good statisfaction = good fun

my all time favorite joke (lame)

2006-08-20T19:30:00.000+08:00

JOKE 1:

in malaysia, there is this illegal 4D company. to be able to buy the 4D number that u want, u have to find the representative of this 4D company to do it.
so guy A is a representative for the company, and guy B wants to buy 4D number. but guy B couldn't decide wat 4numbers to buy, so guy A told him that guyA's mother is buying the number 1658. so as guy B was still deciding which number to buy, guy A got impatient:

guyA:
oi! 你要买什么字啊???
(oi!wat number do u wanna buy??)

guy B think for a while, then decided and said:
我要跟你老母的字买
(meant: i wanna buy your mother's number)
(sounded in chinese: i wanna fuXX your mother's cibaX)

guyA:
..................................................................

JOKE 2:

(in cantonese)
waiter: 你要食什么粥？

costumer: 你有什么好食的粥？

waiter: 皮蛋粥，瘦肉粥，元宝蜡烛

costumer: ........................

JOKE 3:
tausa bun, and bbq pork bun are male buns. lotus bun is a female bun

tausa and bbq pork bun like lotus bun, however lotus bun only like bbq pork bun. because of this tausa bun got so angry and dump bbq pork bun into the river, and KILLED bbq pork bun.

wakakakakakakakakakak i always laugh at this, bbq pork bun was dumped into the river, killed!!! KILLED!!!...... ahem..

joke4:
ah beng and ah lian are couples. however one day, ah beng decided to go to UK to studies, he wants to study his degree, master, phd, and watsoever for 10 years. so b4 he left, he bought a pair of ring for ah lian and himself. and he told ah lian, 10yrs later, when i come back and still see u wearing this ring, then i will take you as my wife. ah lian agreed.

so ah beng left, and time passes fast. 10 yrs later, ah beng came back, called ah lian to meet at this park.

so they came to this park, they see each other, both still with their ring on. but they didn't wanted to go up to each other and talk. they just kept walking in rounds and ignoring each other. at last ah lian kenot take it anymore, she got so fed up, she took the ring out her finger, and threw it into the river and walked away.......

ah beng didn't felt any sad, infact he was a bit happy. after 10 yrs, his taste has change from a ah lien to a jessica alba. so he bassically was just happy tat ah lien had left.

well since ah beng was in the park, he dicided to go fishing by the river... and as he was fishing, suddenly, he got something, he can feel the weight on his fishing line. to his excite, he pulled the rod out, and to his surprise... do u know wat he got? a fish?? ah liens ring???? a boot????
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no it was the bbq pork bun (from joke 3)

i hope it lames up your day........

its raining COW SHIT!! HALLELUJAH!

2006-08-11T16:35:00.000+08:00

for last thursday "animal and society" lab, one of the activities was to collect blood sample from a cow. blood sampling hm... should not be a hard task, first u put the cow into the crush, tie the head, apply some alcohol, then jam the 1.5inch needle into the cow's jagular vein, then suck the blood, pull it out, and wala done!

but things are not as smooth sailing for me and my partner.....

1st cow:
she was a good lovely gentle one, stood there patiently for us. BUT, to0 fat.... kenot find the jagular vein.... been poking the needles for like 10++ times, still kenot find the vein......... ok so move on to other skinnier cows...

2nd cow:
BAAD COW, too agressive, ran away..... case close

3rd cow:
EVEN BAAAD COW! even more agressive. apparently, she shit-ed while she was standing there during the prac. and when it was our turn to come to her and tied her up, she went crazy.... started struggling, fell on its side, and started kicking...... so ok, now she wants to act like a 3 yo kid who can't get her dad to buy her favourite moo-moo candy, kicking like mad on the floor.

AND THEN....... it felt like it was raining, u can feel water droping from the nose, i can feel liquid running down my face, my nose, my overalls........
it actually took me a fair 5 seconds, to notice that it is NOT RAIN, IT'S SHIT!!! OMG THE COW IS KICKNG HER OWN SHIT, IT'S FLYING EVERYWHERE, IT'S RAINING COOOOW SHHHIIIIIIIIIIT HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!!!

ok settle down settle down...... kenot do anything, so have to let her go and move on to the next cow....

4th cow:
GOOOOOOOD COW. finally, one that is too fat, one that is not too coward to run away, and one that is not too shitty to spray shit..... she is goooooooood, got our blood sample, with an easy push pinch and pull out..... waaaaalaaaaaaa....... as easy as that.

its not hard at all to get blood sample from a cow, REALLY

VFE 2 - dairy farm

2006-08-05T01:22:00.000+08:00

this would be my 2nd week of farm work during the holidays. destination - dairy farm.... yeap COW MILKING!!! the dairy farm is in busselton, about 3 hours drive from perth.

MOOOOO~~~

it is no big deal really, at least i dun use my hand to squeeze coq teats, the machine does all the work!

every morning, wake up at 6am, get down to the dairy and let the cows in from the nearby paddock.... it was feaking COLD!! winter mornings are the worse, so cold that there is frost on the grass!!!
and yeah, while letting the cows in, u have to pass through cow shit..... about 1 feet thick cow shit, u step in and it takes u greater effort to pull ur feet out!! but thank god for gum boots (pua chu kang boots), if not my pants will be gone burried under shit....

the dairy

as u can see in the pic above, we move the cow to both side of the corridor, then in the middle, is where all the milking occurs.

thats the machine cup sucking out the milk from the cow. so every morning that's what we do -- fixing the machine on the cow. it does looks a bit tight and painful, but the cows dun give a shit... they are too busy eating pallets!

that's where all the milk will pass by before being stored in the bigger tank.

then after milking them, have to put them back into their paddocks. the farmer move them from paddocks to paddocks everday, so sometimes, we need to cross the roads to get to another paddock.

cows crosssing raod

well i was there for one week, from satruday to friday, and they dun work on friday, so i went to busselton town to look see look see. i visited the busselton jeti, which is a must to go when u are in busselton. the jeti is about 2km long, and i actually walked to the end, and walked back again. almost took me an hour. but it was great!! the sea is so clear, and the weather was nice, and u can see lots of ppl fishing!

starting of the jeti

half way through

still half way.....

f
ishing people fishing fish (STILL half way)

aaaahhhhh finally.... the end!

a few updates

2006-08-02T01:51:00.000+08:00

hello all!

ok uni just started, but damn busy right now. have to hand in my alpaca farm report this friday, and then have to do work for my group project. sigh.... the life of uni, but somehow it is better than at home doing nothing during the holidays

well i went to my 2nd VFE, which is a dairy fam, yeap this time really i did cow milking, will upload some pics and talk about my expirience later la, now very busy lol

about interludes

2006-07-29T15:08:00.000+08:00

我朋友对我说：

"你的小插曲都写得很悲哦。再说你为人有些方面真的很悲。
什么事都非常在乎人家对你的看法，为什么要想那么多？
敢做敢爱一些好不好？？？？”

真的，想起来他那句话说得一针见血。我也没什么好说的，只好默默承认。
是什么时候开始的？
以前我脸皮还蛮厚的，现在却真的很介意人家怎么去想我，怎么去看我，怎么去批评我。
不知不觉我性格成了好害羞。

真的，我还没真真发挥我陈锦源的所有性格
有些时候，我还是背叛了自己的意愿
有些时候，我还是 chicken out

真的, 是时候恢复我了
那个不顾一切, 永往直冲，豁出去的我
是时候从拾信心

farm week 1

2006-07-08T23:15:00.000+08:00

well as u guys know, i went to work at the ALPACA farm for one week, so this is all about the experiences

first day:
woke up at 6.30, atrted driving at 7am, reach there at 8am..... bladdy long one hour drive.
so reach there meet up with the farmer, her name was deborah. she's a very powerful lady, at age 53, she is running the whole farm alone!!! well its not a really bigt farm only 20ha (or ac i forgot liao) so yeah she showed us how to made the alpaca's breakfast.
basically the breakfast includes 2 kinds of hay, 3 kinds of oats, 3 kinds of liquid suppliment, and 4 kinds of other supplements. so mixed it all up and feed all the alpacas.
well i was really amazed at how the lapaca "talk", its like a light curious "hm~" which is soooooooo cute lol.
and it is surprising that the 100 alpacas in her farm all has names!! fancy name... from mayako, to miss divine, isis, cassiopeia, aurora, atikai, sexon, enya, and even shakespear
so yeah first day was baaaaaaaaad, it rained. and we (me and my other classmate) have to work in the rain, fucking cold lor. we spent most of the time indoor, asking her questions for our reports. then about 4.30pm, time to feed them dinner, which is buckets of hay!! well they definately enjoyed it.
so drove home at 5pm, and man it was scary!!!! the country road was so foggy, it felt like i'm in silent hill or so (coz i just watched silent hill trailer the day b4). i can't even see 10m ahead of me, so have to drive slowly lor. got home safely at about 6pm..... another fucking hour drive.

2nd day:
same old thing wake up, drive there. the view in the farm this morning is amazing. it was a cold night b4, and some of the fences and paddicks are actually forzen (not like ice forzen, but maybe a bit on the surface). then as the sun shines, u can see fogs coming out from the fences and paddicks like they are melting!
did the same thing, feed them breakfast, and yeah the farmer let me fed one Squick, who is an alpaca orphan, he lost his mum, so we have to fed him milk ourself. so yeah basically we filled a bottle with de-lact milk, and then put a rubber teat ontop of it for squick to suckle

Squick!!!

then we clean up one of the paddick, then had lunch. after lunch we had 2 hours break, so i went for a walk in the farm. the weather was nice, not sunny, just cloudy and everything just looks so peaceful, the alpacas were busily grazing. and squick kept coming to me, i think he wants more milk lol. feed them dinner, then drove home at about 5pm++
shit was so feaking tired then, nearly fell asleep while driving!! coz the road is alll straight, it only takes two turning from my house to the farm =.= have to slap myself to make me awake

3rd day:
today is where all the actions are!! we mix a female and a male alpaca in a barn, and see them have sex (mate). well according to the farmer, they have to seperate the males and the females, coz the males are horny bastard, and they dun have any mating seasons, so they can go on a mating frenzy!! so they only mix them together when the farmer feel like mating them. so watched two pairs mating for an hour =.=
then afternoon we were cleaning another paddick, picking up poooo..... and i hurt my back while trying to lift a troley full of shit.... i didn't know it was TAT heavy

4th day:
today we plow one of the paddick, dig them up, planted seed, applied ferteliser and cover them up again..... according to the farmer, its to grow grass so that the alpaca can graze on them next season.
then afternoon we gave the younger alpaca boys some vacine and multivitamin injection

5th day:
MORE MATING! mated 5 pairs i think, and u'll be surprised.... we used 5 females but only 3 males..... yeap they can have a quick fXXX, ejaculate and then immideatly go for another one with another female.... this part will be explained more in other post lol
oh yeah forgot to tell u guys, coz they onl shear the alpacas during august -october, so right now all the alpacas are thick and fluffy. the females's tails are also thick and fluffy, so its quit hard for the male to sometimes "get into" the female. so the farmer have to use her hands to guide the penis into the virgina............ YUCK!!!!
then had lunch, prepare some extra food for the alpacas, and the farmer let us go early!!! which is good coz i was dying from not enuf sleep then.....

so there you have it, my 5 days of farm prac 1. which i sept at 11 everynight and woke up at 6.30am every morning, and then drove two hours everyday there and back again..... so tired of driving!!!

some alpaca babies

alpaca

everyone waiting for breakfast

fuffy head

dream a dream

2006-07-08T16:12:00.000+08:00

have u ever had a dream that u thought it was real?

there i was in this highway, with desert at both sides
and there were cars driving by, while i stand confusely by the raod
everything was blur, i remember somebody wispering....
something like "hey hey u will understand"
but what was it i will understand?
i don't even know what was it that i dun understand

i was afraid, i remember.
not able to take any steps forward, i just stood there

i dun remember the faces of the passengers in the cars
they weren't driving fast, but i couldn't see who they were
but i particularly remembered there was a girl, in this car
she had her red ballon floating outside the window,
and as the car pass by me, she let go of the ballon,
it flew towards me, but i was reluctant to move and grabbed it
and so it flew up sky high...

and then, a car stopped by,
the driver was an old man, i can't remember his face
but i did remember his passenger - an old lady
the old lady walked out.
she looked fimiliar, dresssing like my grandma
she wispered something, i forgotten what it was,
but it was something like do u have my red ballon?
i said no, and she seem a bit sad, and told me this
"then i'm afraid i have to say goodbye"
she then moved into the car slowly, a bit angry but mostly sad
then the driver drove his car away
and i was left alone again.

as she leaves,
i started to choke, gasping for air.
it was a fimiliar feeling,
it was the feeling of crying...
but my eyes were dry, i just sat by the road,
trying harder to breath, while i suffer an extreme unexplainable sadness

which then i understood.... (and i didn't know how)
the old lady was, undeniable my grandmother....

i opened my eyes then, i was back to reality... but is this reality?
the dream felt so real, that the moment i opened my eyes,
i thought i was dreaming of myself in my room, sleeping on my bed......

小插曲 - interlude 6

2006-07-05T22:07:00.000+08:00

7月5日，天晴，累了。

失去的，才是最唯美的。
请你不要害怕，因为一切都会很完美。
你所寻找的天体，
会划破天空观测你。

我们都是幸运的孩子，
从来不会哭。
也因此从没见过小丑。
不过海阔天空，有什么是不能的？
现在，已经是过去的，
因为我们不断向前奔跑，
从来没有所谓的现在，
也因此只有未来。

-天体观测

birthday sesaon

2006-06-21T02:12:00.000+08:00

everyone is having their b'day lately, including me lol

yeah well my b'day was good, went out for dinner, then came home for the cake serene baked.

then there was novack's b'day where he discovered the cake while we were preparing it, and we have to ask him to go back to his room and wait for us to knock the door and act surprise him, he did lol

(ps. look how surprise he is!! lol)

then again there was clare's b'day which is today!!!! it was a blast, we threw her a big party, everyone was hiding in her house, and there were even bbq and lots of beer. well i thinked she didn't expect it, coz she was already in her pyjamas then lol

(isn't she cute???)

so hey, happy birthday to all!! its not the about parties or suprises, its about the group of friends that appreciates you and come together to celebrate with you!!

some random pics

2006-06-15T11:33:00.000+08:00

some random pics from perth

my PBL group project of the horse limb

my anatomy PBL partner

point walters (note: sea water slong both side of the beach)

our beloved lab dissection specimen(2005) -- Melisa

dota session at home lol

milo and sushi, two veeeery maanja dog lol (note: non anatomy specimen)

sailormoon the loop ear rabbit (note: non anatomy specimen)

ALPACA!!! aren't they adorable???

Esmee, Nicole, me, Jeff
Keanu
and behind is our vet schooool!

erm................ (speechless)

ERMMM............ (the picture says it all)

world cup

2006-06-13T15:10:00.000+08:00

australian won againts japan yesterday, and i can say the non-australian in australia (including me) very beh song lol

i didn't really watch the match, just went out last 10 minutes of the match to join my housemates watching.... and damn, for the 10 minutes there, i saw australian shot in 3 goals, i was like WTF???

and imeadiately, everyone's msn nick name has change to comment on the match. and it seems most of my classmates and friends also thinks its lame and stupid for the aussie to goal..... coz we all still support JAPAN, although half of us dun watch football.

so for the next few days (or even week) we will have to bear with the blabbing and boosting of the news, tv, newspaper, radio and every australians' mouth about their glorious 10 minutes moment.....

everyone thought the ninja would killed the kangaroo, but surprisingly the kangaroos kick the ninja's asses..... i can't wait to see the brazilian have a taste of some kangaroo meat......

小插曲 - interlude 5

2006-06-13T02:36:00.000+08:00

6月12日，星期一，激烈一天

徘徊在漩涡中，
寻找人群遗忘的地铁。
乘搭在地铁时不停地往后望，
好像很不舍的过去的一切，
却又恨不得快些抵达终点。
我就如此，沉迷在眩惑中。

我们都沉迷在无尽无头的漩涡中

the smell of death

2006-06-10T02:01:00.000+08:00

this blog is mainly bitching about anatomy (again), so u can skip if you are not interested.....

ok firstly, i spend 7 hours in the uni musuem today just feaking looking at all the x rays
exam is on monday, and it feels like i'm going to die on monday. u can feel death slowly creeping near, it sends chill down your spines, and make u sleepless for nights, then when u think u had everything under control it turns out NOT. there are always twists and turns in every yrs paper, it always makes u helpless and hopeless in the examination hall.....

what's worse is the prac exam. rotating from stations to stations every 2 minutes can give u enuf stress.... and when the person opposite you who shares the same station is more distractive then the dead or chopped specimen on the table, u know that for that station U R GONE! well why mind about other ppl's bussiness??? coz they are distractive... as simple as that......

does anyone thinks that i should spend my time studying anatomy rather than bitching about it?

the truth is, if i dun bitch, i'm going to be even dead.... b4 the exam.....

ANATOMY MAKES LIFE MISSERABLE!!!

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2006-06-09T03:24:00.000+08:00

i'm so sick of ken richardson's notes i feel like burning my books......